sooo

yeah... i almost died the other day, it's def. an interesting feeling. It kinda gave me a wake up call. I realize that i'm not untouchable, that one thing could bring me down in a heart beat. maybe this was God way of telling me I am wasting my time here... and if I choose to live for him, I should live for him and not make excuses like so many Christians in today's world do. haha like the army slogan... be all that you can be (no i'm not in the army guard, im in the air guard but the same line of thinking applies) In the Air Force, we have three main values in which to live by "integrity first, service before self, and excellence in all we do". Well i haven't been living up to that by a long shot, especially to God. I realized that I wasn't ready to be called home, i realized that i haven't been giving God my all. i guess what i'm trying to say is that the past couple of days sucked, and to be honest, scared the livin crud out of me, but God managed to smack some sense into me.